3 years ago
Hi. So you're name is Kate? I came right to this very section to tell you: I see how you love sex and being with the men you are with! How so? Important? You believe that if a thing feels right you should do it? Are people ok to judge for themselves what's right and what's wrong? Aren't these the things to most ponder in life? But I know.................already God and his love is real and infinite for you and me and all!!!!! Do you see this?? It's a must because God is the Creator and YEt his loves us all so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He wants you to let him save you. He saved me. I'll be going to heaven, not hell as I was heading there! It's a fiery place where proud sinners go that are unsaved-forever!!!!!!!! Please. I was talking in fact with a web cam girl 'cause God told me to-same matter! Lust is not God's friend to us. It can feel right. See, it's true that we all sin against God alone. But heaven is a place of untold joys-forever. I wanna see you there. God wants for you true love, not eroticism. That's you know, based on the body-you know? what we see has strong effects on us. But feelings by the way do not make God go away. There are not tingles in hell. I love you as well so I go tell you what I need to!! But if in love with someone then people are to marry and then God desires for 'em to make love! So so, we either will trust our emotions and reasoning or turn our trust to God who is the only source of contentment that has the highest meaning. To know God's love, love others and help them how we can. The Bible DOES tell us how to live well but we have the attitude to choose on about that. I used to masturbate a lot to all so many swim suit women, etc. I also thought at 12 that the sex tape I was shown was just it! Wow! But it deceived me, and two of my cousins. Later, if you will ever read this, I experienced an effect from seeing a "prison" couple doing it just as I loved and doing a butt thing! I was worried like never before! But, friend, I fantasized about a girl I'd talk with some but didn't want to get acquainted. I humped pillows wherever, and stole a model magazine. Boy! The second year I had three. I'd just walk downstairs when I felt thrilled and stared at the hips and stuff. But, at 15 the porn tape...where a woman wiggled in a dress, kneeling........caused me to want to almost have sex! So, I had fun wearing other's womens clothes like pantyhose. At 18 I thought my neighbors would have fun clothes too so I went into their bedroom when they worked. I nervously put on a thong but was too scared to make the dream real. But, I did at a new friend's house!! How bad. I went to court. Three years supervision. Grrr! I didn't learn. I ordered a playboy at my grandma's! Scary!! Daring things........led me to grab a little gal's hip in public. I couldn't quit depending on my lusts! Sin. About 23 years of swim models. Then God aided me to avoid 'em. I still wanted my first date. I met a kind woman of God in '14 but she has yet to go out with me for first time after men wanted to use her for sex due to her nice face. I gave into my fantasy masturbating things in my friend Corrine's room. Then I visualized us doing the buttcrack thing on a wooden floor there: she's so pretty. But, this was pointless I knew! Life's beyond sexual physical cycles, looks, money and attention. Oh. I'd kneel with a mirror when I faltered in lusts. It would get far crazier, my friend. Then God tested me for about five years via a porn video idol. That way one can trust him far better. Hmm, for about 240 weeks I looked at destructive things, the truth is! I could sneak white stockings, many undies, night gowns, dresses, etc. and still, i crazed liberty from it all, to please God better than what I was. Oh, I also wore bras when jacking off. However exciting I made it, I regretted. l almost paid for a cam girl to move in circles but said NO! How come there are many but many more who don't check out so well what God has for us all to read in the Bible? Not caring! But God loves you and me anyways. We sin daily he says. His love is very very real. See about him as the real deal-God. What you most value matters! oh I know that many girls are neglected by parents so they believe strongly...............................that love is in working porn. Darkness lies in flashy things like the illusion that SAYS:
whether or not I am lonely I feel like seeing this sex thing! I'll be satisfied. I learned that playboy vhs was a lie! It had people trained for good looking whoopie--------what about training for good living?? I kept thinking of what I saw. Man! Misery, the opposite my friend. I testify in fact. Sin has seasons for cheap pleasure that feels awesome and ruin. Ruin comes later. How come kids are good not to see R rated movies? But adults aren't?
Make it a good day. God has "good" plans for us all. Go see xxxchurch.com Would you think....? Bye.